It is difficult to come up with a clever, brilliant way to preface what I am about to say here. In fact, given the circumstances, it is probably better to not even try. But what I am about to say is one of the most serious things I have ever said, and I honestly believed earlier today (December 18) that hell was going to freeze over before I received the chance to say it.
Whenever any person is murdered, regardless of age, status, race, or sex, someone in the world is going to grieve about it for an indeterminate period of time. This is an expression of that ripple in the pond thing. Even at the end of Hobo With A Shotgun, to cite a fictional example, when the titular hobo was killed, there was someone who screamed and cried at his demise.
Another sad aspect of Human nature, however, is that whenever things go badly, or even not according to plan, we often go in search of someone or something to blame. So when twenty children and seven school staff were callously, indiscriminately gunned down by one man who had too much access to assault rifles, the media equally callously decided to throw references to autism around like they were going out of fashion. All, of course, without any consultation of any psychologist or psychiatrist. Leave alone one that might have had any face-time whatsoever with the gunman.
What I have to say in response will comprise of three parts, each of equal importance, but for different reasons. Rather than go into a certain detail that affects me personally at first, I will begin by telling you something that I think you need to know.
If I could have seen with perfect clarity into my future when I was a six year old boy, I would not have run from a gunman. I would not have let a teacher (the one I had at that time, I hated anyway) hide me behind them. I would have screamed at that gunman to shoot me. And furthermore, if I could give away my life, give it so that Odin could bring back even just one of the twenty children, I would do so with no more thought than it takes me to buy a milkshake. There is one image depicting Santa sitting in a sleigh, a couple of toys spilled from therein, with his head in his hands, presumably crying, as a school with a flag at half-mast sits in the background. That is a pretty accurate description of what I am feeling whenever my thought process turns to children or school, presently.
But apparently we autistic people have no compassion or empathy. Oh yeah, there is a reason I am saying that at this time.
In the couple of years after I was told that I am autistic, I made a video using small clippings from standard-definition renditions of films. This video was themed as a collection of film quotes that match things an autistic adult would like to say to a curebie, and be heard. In order to understand the full context of my next statement, I will tell you that this video was specifically targeting Autism Speaks, a fearmongering organisation of curebies that I do not mind telling you every Powell type would like to kill the entire membership of. Having said that, there are two pertinent quotes I used in the video here. The first is when Mystique asks a Senator if he knows if people like him are the reason she was afraid to go to school when she was a child. The second is when Captain Malcolm Reynolds tells the Operative that has been sent to “retrieve” one of his passengers, and I quote, “I don’t murder children”.
Yes, you read that right. I was saying, effectively, to Autism Speaks, that I am better than them because I have never killed a child. Autism Speaks have. Oh, do not get me wrong. They have not pointed a gun at a child’s head and pulled the trigger. But when children are in a vulnerable position, and have parents who want to believe anything but the truth about them, urging those parents to “treat” what makes them different using means that are demonstrably unsafe and have no scientific basis differs little from putting a gun to the child’s head and pulling the trigger.
So when I write my next statement, please do not moan at me about how cruel or rude or outlandish I am being. This statement is one product of very careful consideration and thought.
I do not directly believe that the shooter, whom I will not call by name so that I will not glorify him like so many other morons out there have, was put up to it by the CIA or Autism Speaks. I do not believe this mainly because until documents get leaked or someone starts testifying to the possibility, this is all speculation. But Autism Speaks is the brain abortion of a woman who has considerable stake in a company called General Electric, and if there is one relationship in the world that is cosier than the fukking stage, it is that between the CIA and big business. So when I say that someone coming forward and claiming this gunman was given LSD and an assault rifle or two by the CIA is not the strangest thing I will have heard in that day, please understand my full meaning.
And as Lenin has been quoted as saying, if you look for the person who will benefit the most, you have your prime suspect. I do not know exactly what personal benefit the membership of Autism Speaks would derive from having a person go into a school and shoot twenty-seven people dead. But I can tell you that judging from the speed at which the CIA’s friends in the media circulated the proclamation that the shooter was autistic, it would not surprise me to hear that one of the Wright family got on the ‘phone and called in a favour or two.
By this point, I know what you are thinking. That this is preposterous. That the idea of a corporate CEO or two calling the CIA and asking them to set it up so a gunman can go into a school, kill children, and then be posthumously labelled autistic without any real substantiation is preposterous. Unfortunately, you only have to look at the CIA’s long history of atrocious behaviour (a list from the mid-1990s can be read here) to know that to people who know how the world really works, this is not all that implausible.
I still refuse to mention the gunman by name, but even if you discount the CIA theory (and barring the uncovering of evidence down the track, it remains only a speculative theory), there are many more holes in the curebie story.
I think I can sum up the reason why I never believe curebie claims that run “X did baad, so X has autism“ in a nutshell. It is called selectivism. You see, for as long as I have been aware of my being autistic, people in the autism civil rights movement have been putting forth names of individuals whose behaviour strongly suggests being on the spectrum. These names range from those I wish we could dismiss (Bill Gates, world-renowned monopolist and code thief), to those who have done great things (Steven Spielberg, director of numerous awesome films), to those who took the world we live on and shook it up in ways that are almost incomprehensible to those born after the shaking (Albert Einstein, do I really need to tell you who that is?).
On every occasion when these names have been suggested, the normie response has been very predictable, but when conjoined with this latest round of fearmongering, also easily seen as prejudicial. Namely, they tell us these people cannot possibly be or have been autistic because they were too intelligent/did great things/are too impacting on our world and so forth. Full stop, amen, and no argument ever tolerated. The
reasons excuses the normies give might vary a little, but they all boil down to one of those statements. And I have something to tell you about them that might shock you: they are universally bullshit. When a person is neurologically hard-wired to focus on one area of interest to the exclusion of all else, including in some cases personal hygiene, it would be more surprising if one of them did not do something so Earth-shattering its effects are felt long after they die of old age.
But that point is secondary to the one that I want you, the reader to walk away with. Specifically, the normies want us to not be allowed our idols, but to have to wear every unsubstantiated claim that all villains are one of us. This is the point that I wish the autistic civil rights movement would focus on, because it strikes deep at the heart of normie prejudice and proves what a bunch of asshats they really are. Let me concrete this with a statement that I am sure would have the eight million Americans who are black screaming in outrage:
Malcolm X; Martin Luther King, junior; and Carter G. Woodson could not possibly be black because they were too clever and insightful to be black. But those black teenaged boys who shoot each other dead in poor black areas constantly should be taken as representation of black people not only in America but worldwide.
Now, a question. How do you feel after reading that two-sentence statement? Angry? Outraged? About to call my ISP and ask them to terminate my service for hate speech? Good. That means you are capable of understanding my main point.
Let us change the names I just mentioned (and to be fair, I picked them out after just a quick read of documents pertaining to the black civil rights movement in America). Let us change the group they are a part of. Let us substitute “black people” with Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese, Arab, or even Polish. The statement reads exactly the same. And if you think it is any different when we change the names to Albert Einstein, Temple Grandin, et cetera, and the group name to “autistic”, then you are wrong. Dead wrong.
So let us be clear about this point. You cannot have one without the other. If we are not allowed to have idols and people who exemplify the best of Humanity, then you are not allowed to shove murderers, thieves, and cowards into us. You cannot have it both ways, normies.
Now, having said all of that, it also takes an extraordinary event. No wait, let me start over. People being shot dead at schools is hardly an extraordinary event in America anymore. In fact, somewhere I read that the frequency in which they occur within America is mere months. That, in itself, is unsettling. But in events that cause deep frustration or sadness, many individuals display their character, and many of them show seriously awful, disgusting character. I will be brief about the Westboro Baptist Church because all that I can really say is that you have to be a truly pathetic, sick excuse for a person to even consider picketing the funerals of children. It is enough to make me wish I could do the kinds of things that one of my proxy characters can do, and make them feel all of the sorrow, all of the anguish, involved in having to bury your own child.
But the true pathetic-ness on the part of the norms has been manifested in people on Fudgebook starting groups and writings posts that they should go and find some autistic child at random and burn them. I wish I were making that up. But this brings two responses to my mind. First, as I have made clear above, you would have to go to extraordinary ends to prove to me that this shooter really was autistic, as opposed to someone you just made shoot up a school so you could claim him to be autistic after the fact. Second, at least one of the children slain in this shooting has been confirmed as “developmentally disabled” (whether they were autistic or not is unknown). Does that mean we get to go out and burn your children in retaliation for those of ours you have killed, normies? Because let me assure you, the number of autistic children killed by normies has one relationship with the number of normies killed by autistic anybody. That is, it is staggeringly inverse. Long before any of you assholes knew what the powers wanted you to think the word “autistic” means, stories about excuses being made and people being let off for murdering the autistic were legion. So if you want to talk blood debts, normie shitbags, now is the time to pay up!
This, of course, brings me to my final point. Yes, I am a violent, angry, threatening person. I am, after all, a Powell type. But the thing is, if you would stop talking for two seconds and actually listen to facts for a change (and I know this is hard for you normies), then you would discover an extraordinary thing. You made me this way. You refused to help when I needed it the most. You even tried to convince me I was baad and deserved to be beaten, bullied, and so forth. And although the violent side of my personality was pretty well-cemented by the time this happened, you refused to even try to help undo the damage when the truth was discovered. In fact, you still continue to talk about autism as if autistic adults (unless they do baad things, of course) simply do not exist. We often speak of how men who batter their wives grow up in homes where similar events occurred during their childhood. We often speak of how adults who subject children that are far too young to give consent to sexual acts (I mean “prepubescent” when I say far too young, so fukk off, babifiers) were made to perform sexual acts as children. We often speak of how adults who create an environment of terror for their children to live in received the same when they were children. So when I tell you, the normies out there, that your behavior resembles an abusive parent, I want you to understand my meaning.
As a closing statement that is less related to the shootings, I would also like to express just how disappointed I am in the autism civil rights movement as a whole. Again and again, I have tried to explain to you that this is the kind of reward you get for passivism. And you have ignored me every time. As I keep analogising, Vietnam is not a unified country because the North went to France and America and said “please let us have the rest of our country back”. It is a unified country today because the people who wanted it unified (which pretty much meant everyone by the time the Americans got involved) fought long and hard for it.
For years, the normies have demonstrated an utterly unbroken track record of spitting in our faces whenever you hold out your hands in supplication. They excuse people who murder us as child or adult, and you keep coming back with your hand out. They make ridiculous bullshit campaign ads about us, and you keep coming back with your hand out. Enough is enough. All of the forms of martial arts follow a philosophy of not acting aggressively until a prospective opponent makes it clear that there is no other choice. Well, passives, I have something to tell you that is going to come as a shock. This latest “let’s tell the world how baad the autistic are” act is an escalation, and one along a line that will inevitably lead us to death camps, forced experimental surgeries, and legalisation of prejudicial acts. It is already, for all intents and purposes, perfectly legal to murder someone just for being autistic. How long do you passives plan to keep begging for recognition of our right to exist whilst the wheels of dehumanisation continue to turn? Until we are all dead?
So, to review:
- Persons proclaiming the shooter to be autistic have no solid basis for doing so (and even most psychologists are incapable of really providing one). They do so only in order to help the dehumanisation of the autistic.
- Autism Speaks may have called in favours from big business’ best friend, the CIA, in order to help this along. (This theory is wanting for evidence, but let us just say that knowing the CIA and Autism Speaks, it would not surprise me.)
- The curebies are trying to limit representation of us to the exclusively negative, and do not care if they use Nazi-like methods to do so.
- Genuinely violent autistic adults tend to be violent in the face of provocation, usually of the extreme kind.
- Passive autistic adults are like concrete blocks upon the feet of autistic people as a whole.
A sad summary, I am sure you will agree. But one that highlights something I have said to others a number of times. Things simply cannot keep going on the way they are. The greater autism civil rights movement needs to start changing the manner in which they present themselves and prosecute the cause, or all of us will suffer badly for it. Because in a nutshell, regardless of the details, this is just another attempt by norms to demonise us, and a pretty nasty one at that. And if you ask any Jew who is old enough to remember the 1930s, this level of effort to demonise an entire group of people is generally followed by behaviour that people put their heads in their hands and weep about for decades after the fact.
My unlimited condolences go out to the people who lost loved ones in this latest school shooting. There is nothing I can say to those people that will make any of this hurt less.
My scorn and disgust to both the normie media and the passives will never end. Good night, and good luck.
Please tell me more about your distaste for Autism Speaks. Why? I want to know your experience. My son is almost 7, he was diagnosed last year at his school. This year they wanted to know the meds he was on because his development “is remarkable”. I was offended and replied that he is not on medication! I love my son and everything about him. I understand his ways and think he’s such a beautiful boy. He has such a heart that will overwhelm with emotion when he understands another’s pain. He is safe with me so he can express this! He would NOT express or even know how to with anyone else he doesn’t understand himself! I work with him and encourage his loves and passions and it really isn’t hard to do. I ask about Autism Speaks bc his schools professionals, whom work with him very well, often suggest involving myself with this organization and if there should be caution made before looking into this, I would like to know and judge for myself. I am still learning. The “normies” at my sons school highly respect me as my autistic sons mother and would love to hear a difference of opinion concerning this organization if provided. Thank you for your time.
Okay. This reply is going to be somewhat verbose because I feel a need to communicate a number of points. Please read it through to the end before replying or reacting, and carefully internalise what I say here. Remember, too, that the person you are addressing is potentially what your son will think and feel in another twenty years.
Now, first of all, if there is anyone who needs education about the reality of being on the autistic spectrum, it appears to be more or less everyone at the school you speak of. I will not ask you to name names. But I can tell you without a second of pause that many of the parents of autistic children that I am in contact with would, on knowing which school you speak of, avoid it like I avoid certain grass types.
I will not comment concerning the midsection of your statement (specifically, “I understand his ways”), because this is a bit of a bold statement to make for anyone who is not autistic. Hell, it is a bold statement even for other PTSD-suffering Powell types to make about me. Please remember at all times that your son is nearly seven years old, and will change very dramatically during the next five to ten years of his life (especially in the latter part of that timeframe). Assuming nothing and remembering that every thing not only you do and say will be reflected in another ten years, but also every thing that everyone else does and says, is crucial.
Now, having said all of that, I do not care how well the school’s “professionals” work with him. They have two options here. They can either expose themselves to the truth about Autism Speaks, or they can ship out. There is no middle ground here. Anyone presuming to work with or for the autistic should not ever give this group the time of day. Now, I know you do not have the same abundance of time on your hands as I do, but searching online journals for articles concerning the ludicrous amounts of money Autism Speaks’ executives pay themselves or where the money is going would be a good start. There are several articles on this journal you are reading now that talk about why Autism Speaks would be labelled fraudulent and deprived of any tax exemptions if they were “representing” individuals with cancer or diabetes (both of which I suffer from) in the same manner as they purport to represent the autistic. That is just for starters.
Now, the reason I was so very concerned about what you have to say concerning the people at your son’s school is because their view of your son is sounding suspiciously like the view that Autism Speaks want them to have. That they can even suggest getting involved with Autism Speaks to you strengthens this fear. Autism Speaks have always viewed and spoken of autism to the public with a disease model view of autism. Now, I do not know about you, but when someone tells me a neurological variance that I was born with, and others chose to respond to by abusing me in ways that get less justifiable every time I think them through, is a disease, I get angry. Diabetes is a disease. It shortens your life expectancy, causes your body to break down faster, and if the dice rolls go exactly the wrong ways at the wrong times, will kill you. Cancer is a disease. Even the most benign versions of it leave enormous scars and manglings that take a lifetime to adjust to (as I have partly shown elsewhere in this journal). When you look at it with this kind of context, Autism Speaks’ view of autism is not merely insulting. It is Nazi-like. And I know I raised an eyebrow by describing it that way. As one folk tale said before Disney defaced it, if the shoe fits, wear it.
Looking through YouChoob is also a good exercise. Try to start by finding Autism Speaks’ adverts. Watch a few of them, and think to yourself. Does this bear even the slightest relationship with how you know and view your son? Pay special regard to the fact that Autism Speaks will not allow comments on most (if not all) of their videos. This is because Autism Speaks do not want potential donors (or suckers/collaborators, as we elder autistic individuals call them) seeing how badly they are thought of by the same people that they claim to represent. Also worthy of note is the similiarity, previously spoken of by me elsewhere on this journal, between Autism Speaks’ ads and the snippets of Nazi propaganda films that Michael Burleigh dissected in the documentary Selling Murder: The Killing Films Of The Third Reich (a documentary I wish were easily available, as it is an awesome educational piece). Then, go and look for videos made by people who are autistic. Not the parents of children on the spectrum, actual people who are autistic. To say that there is a massive disconnect between how Autism Speaks present or see themselves, and how the autistic see them, is like saying that Pol Pot had a tiny bit of an intolerance for anyone who was not basically a redneck.
Finally, I do not know what the community or size thereof around you is. I live in the backyard of a city where millions of people go through every day, which in turn connects to a bigger city where parts of The Matrix were filmed (I have walked down the same street Larry Fishburne and Keanu Reeves did in one plot-explainer, numerous times). If you can find any kind of community group where autistic adults meet, do so. Go there a couple of times. On the first try, explain to them that you have a recently-diagnosed child whom you want to get a better understanding of how to prepare for the future of. And listen to what they talk about very carefully. Of course, getting someone to mind your son whilst you are there is an important part of this process.
Now, I have to be exceedingly honest about this point. In a school where certain professionals recommend you participating in whatever Autism Speaks does, it is impossible to see them as respecting you. Whilst I cannot speak for every single person at that school, what I can tell you is that if they are not condemning the people who recommended giving Autism Speaks anything other than the finger, then they are on board with Autism Speaks. That might sound paranoid, but articles in number on this site illustrate why this is true. I do not know these people, and there is a slim chance that I might be mistaken, but there are parallel models to how you should view the relationship between your son and Autism Speaks. The Jews and the Nazis. The Ukranians and Joseph Stalin. The white farmer and black South Africans. I hope I do not need to go on.
A good, somewhat more lighthearted, place to start on YouChoob would be this video. Just cover your son’s ears as you watch it. Any further queries or comments are, of course, welcomed.